I stopped smoking, partially, because I said to myself, “I’ve had enough.” Isn’t that why you quit? I don’t know. I only know that either you say it to yourself or someone says it to you. That you’re quitting – well the word just doesn’t mean anything. It sounds like a verb. It should...
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Hungry ghosts
Sometimes I’ll feel as if I’m searching but I can’t figure out what it is. But a vague feeling will push me. It’s as if I feel something missing and then realize it’s intolerable to feel this. It takes a while sometimes till I realize that this is Nic. Unable to find the words,...
Zen calendar
I dreamt about pulling the pages of my Zen calendar off, day by day, as if this would move me closer to my goal. There was wisdom on each page but I felt divided by that and the calendar’s purpose. First, the strict accounting of days and my trouble with that. Then, if properly...
Origins and Endings Part 3 – final installment
If the observer effects the observed than something changes what you’re reading as you read along. Maybe if you’re reading about a single celled creature you create a multiple celled organism by this act that was formally believed to be relatively passive. A quiet evolution could be taking place all over the country. It...
Origins and Endings Part II
“Now what?” you might ask yourself, questioning the very nature of your freedom. You might even long for the time when your life was as uncomplicated as your single celled relatives. It works this way. There is a direct connection between the two threats. In the black hole you’re diminished and in the...
Origins and Endings – part 1
Changed utterly. Squished. Squashed. Flattened on the platen of time. Irrevocably transformed. The same power of profusion and fullness that brought hydroelectric power to the juices flooding your life, filling your cellular sacs, juicing your joints and bringing spit to your lips is thrown into reverse. And everything...
Addictions and the environmental crisis
Is there a connection between our addictions to drugs, alcohol, tobaccco – maybe even coffee and tea, to our environmental crisis? Freda Karpf wrote Conversations with Nic based upon the journey through the land of withdrawal. A multi-genre work, Nic, has real and creative episodes. The whole book can be read from cover to...