Sometimes I’ll feel as if I’m searching but I can’t figure out what it is. But a vague feeling will push me. It’s as if I feel something missing and then realize it’s intolerable to feel this. It takes a while sometimes till I realize that this is Nic. Unable to find the words,...
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Purgatory is on hold
I felt as if I could no longer resist the call waiting. But that’s just like purgatory. It’s a waiting game. It’s only the surroundings which make the game difficult. Otherwise anyone could wait anywhere with no problems. Even so, I won’t lose my cool knowing that I’m only biding my time now. There’s...
Zen calendar
I dreamt about pulling the pages of my Zen calendar off, day by day, as if this would move me closer to my goal. There was wisdom on each page but I felt divided by that and the calendar’s purpose. First, the strict accounting of days and my trouble with that. Then, if properly...
Origins and Endings Part II
“Now what?” you might ask yourself, questioning the very nature of your freedom. You might even long for the time when your life was as uncomplicated as your single celled relatives. It works this way. There is a direct connection between the two threats. In the black hole you’re diminished and in the...
Addictions and the environmental crisis
Is there a connection between our addictions to drugs, alcohol, tobaccco – maybe even coffee and tea, to our environmental crisis? Freda Karpf wrote Conversations with Nic based upon the journey through the land of withdrawal. A multi-genre work, Nic, has real and creative episodes. The whole book can be read from cover to...
Nic on notice
With humor as a backdrop, the “memoir” style narrative will feel familiar to those that have read contemporary writers in search of self and soul. What we leave behind in the dark of our minds and histories can boomerang back through our psyches. All you need is a catalyst, or a home made bomb....